halo-halo
these past few days are mixed-up feelings of emotions. i've been happy, been sad, composed, paranoid, wandering, curious, contented . . . everything in full blown in one moment after the other.i've been looking for g*r**'s account in friendster and i've finally found it after months of searching. i've been spelling his name always with double r and it's just single r all along! finally, i saw his face once again and i clearly remember how such this lovely man has first captured my attention when he was still in their high school basketball varsity team. he since then has also been occupying my thoughts through the years. he's getting married soon and will join the line-up of my married men crushes. his friendster account has pictures of him and his soon -to- be wife...small world, the lucky girl was not his long-time girlfriend and this new girl knows my aunt. they belong to the same high school and college.yes, she's very pretty and smart (a debater at that!) but i'm not envious of that coz i know i possess some nice qualities myself (but not as enhanced as the ones she possesses because she's also a model and was exposed to beauty stuff and i'm simply an eccentric artist eversince) but i truly, truly think she's lucky for having g*r**. i feel depressed, i'm losing my drive in everything that i do most especially at work and a little in my community service. i need something to keep me occupied...drama ito,OO! wala naman akong karapatan coz he doesn't even know me...he doesn't know that i exist all these years...he's one of those stars above i've been trying to reach. i'm okay, really, just been thinking of "what if's again" lately.
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